let me clarify a few things.

Many of you have offered such sweet and comforting comments when I posted about my infertility. Let me tell you, I was really scared. Why was I scared?

I guess it's just scary to spill your guts.

I know that those who read my blog are family and friends that I love and can trust. So why was I kind of scared that someone might leave a well-meant comment that would hurt my feelings or something? I don't know.

I was so worried about my own feelings, maybe I didn't think about yours...

I know that a lot of my family and friends are expecting or have new little babies and I want to clarify something...

I am truly, genuinely, HAPPY for other people that are pregnant and having babies.

Conceiving is a happy thing and so when I have a friend tell me the good news that they are expecting, or when a good friend lets me hold their newborn baby. I am truly happy for them! I love you. I love your babies! (but only the real ones... I actually agree that the floating ones on the blog sidebars are kind of creepy). I am excited for you! I will make you dinner when you get home from the hospital. I will babysit your kids. I will feel joy at the birth of your new baby... I am seriously happy for you and your growing families!

When I look a little deeper I realize that...

the hurt doesn't come because everyone else is having babies...
The hurt is because I am NOT having babies...

That is something that I have to deal with, I really don't think that everyone else should have to deal with MY infertility when they are around me.

I don't ever want people I know to feel the need to "walk on eggshells" around me. I don't want my friends and family having to worry about every little thing you say when they are talking to me, afraid that I might get offended...please please know that even if you think you have said something that may have offended me in any way...I may or may not have been offended. If I wasn't offended... Yeah! If I DID get offended...I have forgiven you. :) I still love you... I for one, definitely have said things I have said that I regret or that I realized later may have offended someone as well! Some people have a way with words, some people just...don't. And that's that...We are all human.

Elder Bednar has some great advice about this subject. I try to take it into account when I am feeling offended. (well, most of the time)

Ok, that is all I have to say about that.


However...

...since we are on the subject of offense... I hope that all you lovely little "Twilighters" don't get offended from my silly comments about the Twilight books. It's just that I find all of the "vampire gossip" kind of funny. My curious nature prompts me to WANT to read them, but the reality is, what if I DO read them and I end up LIKING them! Or even worse, LOVING EDWARD!

I could never live with myself...


Alas....

...that's my pride talking...I know when the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (DA-NA!) come to theatres in July, I will be eating my words...